My journey of becoming a mother!

On 09/12/2007, I reliase I am pregnant. I am so happy to share this news with my husband. Both of us are looking forward the arrival of the baby.

On 08/08/2008, I went for my normal checkup. The doctor told me that you can deliver today as my cervix has been opened 3 cm. The doctor suggested that I deliver today and I called my husband about that and we decided to deliver by today. After that, I was admitted to the hospital and sent to the labour room. The time is 11 am. They started to give me medicine to plush out all my "dirty" in my stomach. The tablet is so efficient, once inserted within 1 minute, I feel like want to do big task. Then I rush to the toilet and plush everything out.

Then the started to insert the needle into my vein for induce dripping. Then the doctor came and break my water bag. After that, baby heart beat monitor was installed around my big tummy. Everything they did is so new to me. But my feeling that time is just so excited and happy. I am happy and excited that I will be able to see my baby soon.

Once everything done, I just have to wait until my cervix is 10 cm dilated. The doctor checked again and told me that now is 5cm already. Yeh, 5cm more to go... I waited and waited..... Finally at 10.30pm, the doctor said you can start to push your baby. The baby is ready to come out. Wah.... it really a big task for me. I never be so tired and painful. Hubby is beside me to keep telling me to push. I can hear the nurse keep saying "Push harder longer and longer, again push harder longer and longer...." I almost give up and doctor inserted a vacumn to help me to get out the baby. I gave a final push and suddenly I feel something came out from the bottom. I know is my baby....

After that, I can see my baby crying but her eyes is opened when she came out. She is so adorable and look so much like Stan. I am so happy and looked at my hubby... Both of us laugh and I feel so warm and toughing when I see my baby. I have a chance to hold her for her while, I kiss her and I feel so close to her. The picture is still very clearly appear in my mind.

Today, she is already 7 months. The time flies so fast. She is a big girl now. From day 1 till now, everyday I make sure I have a lot of time for her. I make everything the best for her. I make sure myself have enough breastmilk for her. Waking up in the mid night for pumping just I scare the milk supply will decrease if I didn't pump at night. I read a lot of articles and books to make sure I have knowledge on how to take care of my baby.

Sometimes, I am so stressed out. It is because I always got complained from my in laws complaining on my baby. For example, they will say:" wah... kam yat, kui hao gan you lao gai ar... hmm hang sek, hmm hang fun....." I feel so stress and sad when hear this. My baby has no problem when she is with me. I don't understand why everytime I got this complain from my in laws. If this problem persist for few days, then they will give her "Pearl Powder" to eat. This make me even stress. Because I don't know what is the side effect of pearl powder. I will start calling my mother and asking a lot of things. Check with my sister as she is more experience than me. Do research from internet, keep discussing with my hubby, checking with my maid what else my in laws do to my baby....

Ai.... sometimes, I am really tired of all this. I feel so stress until I dreamed of my mother in law that I screamed at her to tell her to let me handle my baby my way. I am so tired of explaining....Sometimes, I am so scare to go to their house because I don't know to hear complains again...

Anyway, no matter how I will do the best for my baby. Just a smile from her, it worth all the things that I done for her... To me, she is such a good girl and adorable. She is so charming with her smile. All my friends and relatives were attracted by her smile.

Cry out loudly during the journey back to KL from SP

We have a bad experience on yesterday while we are on the way back from Sg. Petani to KL. As usual, we started our journey at 4pm. I put Alanis at her car seat and we started the journey. The maid was with her at the back seat of the car. We talked to her and soon she started to feel sleepy and she slept.

After 2 hours, she woke up and we have reached Simpang Pulai. So, daddy stopped the car at the rest house and went to rest room. After Stan came back, me and my maid went. We didn't bring her down since it is raining. After we all came back, we started the journey again.

A nightmare happen now. She started to cry and getting louder and louder. At first, we thought she is hungry as it is the usual time to feed her. So we stopped at another rest house. We heated the milk and feed her. But she refuse to drink, so we decided to continue the journey. Again, once she got into the car, she cried again. We don't know what to do and I just do whatever I can to sooth her. I am running out of ideas and my heart is so painful to see her crying. So, I asked Stan to stop the car at another rest house and we got down the car. The moment the car is slowing down, she stopped crying and getting happier. When she is outside the car, she laugh and cheer...

We decided to make some cereal for her to eat. She ate half bowl of cereal and we decided to start the journey again as sky is getting darker. The moment we wanted to get into the car, she started to cry out loudly again. She just keep crying and crying until we bring her to sit in front with me. Then she stopped a while and started cryting again. I think she getting tired and her face is sticking to my face, she slept by this position. I can't move her because if I slightly moved her, she cried. So, I have no choice and let her be like this for 15 minutes. Then I slowly moving her down to my hand.

I am feel so pity on her. I think she is too boring in the car and she just want to be out of the car. She doesn't understand that why the journey to go home is so long. I hope I don't experience this again when I go back end of this month.

Teething!

Alanis is teething now. I can her 2 teeth clearly. She likes to bite her mouth and lip as I believe the gum is itchy. She is a good girl. She doesnt has any symptom of teething like mild fever, gassy, dierhoer....

Now, I reliase that there is another one might pop out soon... It is the upper middle one.. I can see a clear white spot already. I am waiting to see another teeth to come out...

Some updates photos of Alanis

Finally everything back to normal

Finally, everything back to normal. Alanis has resume her normal attitudes. She drinks and sleep well now. She is able to sleep by her own without making any noise. She seldom cry except she is hungry.

I feel so relief when I see her smile and laugh happily. There is a secret behind this. My parents in law give her 'pearl powder' as they think she is in scared. After given her to eat this, she is ok and fine. But I am still wondering what is the power ingrediant of this pearl powder. Anyway, as long as she is fine after eating this, I am fine too....

It is been a while I didn't take any picture of her. Will take picture of her tomorrow...

Refuse to drink milk

Alanis is drinking lesser milk now. I don't know why, she keep pushing away the milk and start crying when I start to feed her. So, I have to wait till she is half asleep, then only feed her. Then, she can finish 5oz of milk.

According to my mother in law, it is because Alanis is in scare, that why she doesnt want to drink milk. I am still thinking and thinking why this would happen. Can somebody tell me why? This make me very worry why she keep refuse to drink milk... I am stress out.

Hair Cut and a trip back to SP

Yesterday, Alanis has a hair cut by my dad. This is her second hair cut since she is borned. My dad has a very good skills and make my baby look very beautiful.

We have a nice trip back to SP as well. Alanis didn't choose places and people. She lets everyone to hold her and she plays with them. All of my family members are attracted by her. Here it goes the photos.